of course, IIT is the most competitive place for students all over the worlds, and I can see the students from IIT is so brilliant, so hard working and so self-principled, which is what I am not capable of .
so I probably would learn much from those brilliant IIT students and begin to appreciate what I have earned.
why should I suffer so much as a Ph.D student?
because I am not born with the resources others do, to get what they have now, you need to sacrifice.
like the students in IIT ,if they don’t work like a pure idols, what kind of life would they have?
they would live like a slum dog in the monbay street, just like any other indian boys do.
Then, it comes to me,
now I always want to be like as elegant and successful as Ying chang does, but it can’t be true. because what she has is not something I can expect.
what kind of life you deserve now??
of course, it is the life work as a workaholic and then will get somewhere around.
just work.
bye bye all the distracted life style, I need to focus..