winter quarter finally starts, before it , I have lots of plans, plan to take acting class, plan to take to take ballet class, but after one week, all the ambitions disappears. The reason is simple, I lost all the determination, and the freezing weather really makes it more unachievable for me… I hate the cold weather. really.
I thought I worked hard enough, but when look at my own profile, I realize that it is actually far away from enough. I still just embarked on the journey. still too many things to do that I even feel frustrated by the way to go.
The most frustrating thing in the world is that I am surrounded by all kinds of supermen.
like Yuxin, I still can’t figure out how he can take so many courses and still able to conduct good research, I mean really good research.
Iike zhou hao, got his phd in 4 years + MBA+ 2 master , now he is working for a hatch fund.
Like Xie yao, absolutely beautiful women, got married and got published lots of paper, TA several classes and now she is teaching Information Theory in Duke.. .. Can a just graduated phd teaching a graduate school for such an important topic in such a distinguished university?? isn’t that called wonderful??
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the list is on and on and on. Sitting in the same place, I am just far away from them.
now this really makes me to think about finding my place in the world. Unfortunately, I am not born in a wealthy family, neither my father nor my mother has money or fame.
I haven’t got very good education, at least I used to think that way.
But Now, I realize everyone, don’t need to be good at all the things, but just need to be an expertise in one field, good at doing one thing.
Review how vincent van gogh started his drawing at 30. and he drew from day to night without any rest. has anyone accused him of not able to play piano?
so I don’t need to be so ambitious and want it all, I just need to be good at one thing. Now, I am still thinking of doing academia, I still think my public speaking skills and communication skills, may be not superb compared with marketing people, but definitely good enough among the nerds,
besides, I still think banking or consulting is not a good career choice, You won’t be able to do it when you are , for 50 or something, but I still can teach students when I am 70. Having a job is really a must for all the human beings, but amusingly you are really good at it.
So, in a word, concentrate, minimalism, and just do the things simple and elegant. Everyday counts, though I am not good at this stage, as long as I keep trying, I will hand out a good resume when I graduated.